What went through my mind when I first held my baby? Before I can answer that, I would need to go back 23 years to my birth and start from there…
Let’s just say my Mom’s delivery of me, her first born, didn’t go as planned. After 36 hours of laboring, she underwent a traumatic emergency c-section in order to save my life. I won’t go into crazy detail, but let’s just say… it wasn’t pretty. This was the story I grew up hearing and quite honestly was probably one of the first things that went through my head when I found out I was pregnant for the first time. Fear of what path my body was now on. Would I be able to deliver normally without having to go through a c-section or was I heading down the same path as my Mom. If I was traveling her same trajectory, would it be as traumatic or will it be simple and peaceful?
As fate would have it, the apple didn’t fall to far from the tree. I went two weeks over my due date and then my doctor finally scheduled an induction. After laboring for 11 hours, my doctor entered the room with a swarm of people starting to prep me for surgery. He didn’t say, “We think it’s time for a c-section, would that be alright with you?” He just went to work. My worst fear was coming to fruition. I felt helpless and feared that I was heading into my own personal hell.
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